"I FOUND MY PEACE"
by Joanne Boyle
I heard that awful news today
as you stood beside my bed.
Although I had prepared myself,
for all the things you said.
I wanted you to go away.
I wanted the life I'd known.
I wanted yesterday.
Yet still you stood there screeching,
scratching at my brain.
Running over my ever after
with the wheels of your steam train.
I am not sure if you saw me cry,
or did I wait for you to go?
I tried to cover my ears,
because I didn't want to know.
I heard everything you said.
I just didn't comprehend.
So I played my childhood game.
The one where I pretend.
I thought a thousand thoughts.
I wondered what I'd done.
I looked towards the door.
Maybe I could run.
Then I thought of my family.
My children of the Earth.
So I looked you in the eye,
and remembered my self worth.
I was not afraid of anything,
as much as leaving you behind.
Who would be there to guide you
when something was on your mind?
So then I found my peace
with the life I got to own.
Cancer will not defeat me.
This illness I disown.